I just wrote that headline, and I am not sure why. I guess that is the present mindset for me, and whatever caused it can’t really be ignored.
Is my collecting based on getting new shit as soon as I can? Is it predicated on having something that others don’t? Is it based on the thrill of entering a store and finding something I have been looking for? Is it the pursuit of creating the perfect collection? Is it because I make friends with a lot of cool people? Is it because I like cars? Is it because I like toys? Is it because I am trying to recreate the joy of my childhood, and every inevitable failure in doing so just leads me to start again?
I have no idea. Some of those ideas are shallow, cheap, and not fair. Others might be accurate. Ultimately everyone collects for their own reasons, and there is probably a mix of reasons you are happy to admit to and others you’d like to keep sheltered away.
Collecting is also a window into the best and worst of us. It is in many ways a trivial pursuit. Literally pursuing a toy that you can put in your possession, so you can feel the satisfaction of having it and telling people you have it. No reason to judge that, as I am the first to say it can be very satisfying. But it can distort itself quickly, taking more headspace than it needs to, demanding more than it should, and forcing itself higher on the list of life’s priorities.
It can create lifelong friendships, but also baffling rivalries. It can bring joy to someone’s life, but also completely destroy one’s family structure. It can make one person share the joy of the latest acquisition, while make another share the strange satisfaction of simply having more of one thing than someone else.
This is a free write. Just me letting my fingers move on the keyboard. Maybe because with all the others things I do I miss just writing. But my mind is somewhere. Not ignorable, these thoughts.
But don’t read too much into them. It isn’t about Lamley, it is about collecting. #tranquilcollecting is a thing I believe in. It comes from experience. It comes from focusing on the joy of collecting, whatever that means to you. It means in a general sense to always contribute to the hobby in a positive way. It also means to CONSTANTLY assess where collecting stands in my life, and checking to see if it is properly balanced.
And that means to not ignore my thoughts. It would be odd if I was always into the hobby. Doing Lamley means I am always on the pulse so to speak, but if I wasn’t I could see myself fading in and out. I don’t know where I am now, but my thoughts are where they are, and my job is to not ignore them. Plus I love writing about them.
This is very much related to the fact that the world itself is demanding our attention, asking us to put trivial things aside. It is also related to the fact that COVID-19 is not going anywhere, and we are all coming to terms that life is changing rapidly, and the new normal will be more about NEW and less about NORMAL.
The hobby can provide relief from reality, and that is a good thing. But as it can also be a microcosm of life in general, it should also be a place to reflect change and new thinking. Systemic change means changes in the massive and the minute, and the collecting world falls right in.
So if collecting for me is boring at the moment, that is actually pretty cool. It is because I realize it is. It means I can happily put my brain elsewhere, and know the hobby isn’t going anywhere. It will be there for me when I want to come back. It will also give me an assuring smile, and a wave, and send me off into the sunset if that is where I want to go.
This is no manifesto. Collecting isn’t boring. The hobby is more dynamic than it has ever been. There is plenty for me to enjoy. There is plenty for me to write, talk, and chat about in this Lamley world that has been created. I love doing it.
But telling you what is coming, what I think is cool, and even worse, adding some fun facts to what you collect has its limits. I am evolving, Lamley too, and I am enjoying talking more. Talking to you, not just about what you collect, but what your life is like. Using the hobby as a connection only, as a starting point. Creating a stronger dynamic, one more honest and real. Don’t come to me just to find out what is coming out soon. Come and tell me what you like. How you collect. When you are sick of it. When you can’t get enough. And I will tell you the same. Let’s connect. (And I will still tell you that Hot Wheels is making a new Trueno when I can. I can’t yet.)
Let’s see where the 1/64 hobby can take us. I have learned that there are a lot of interesting people in this hobby, and they can take us to new places.
Sometimes I will write about where my mind is. Mine is here. No further along than where I started writing a few minutes ago. But a little better after writing.
I have no idea what all this means. I am looking forward to showing some cool shit here and telling you why I like it.